I wonder

I wonder what would really happen if I let Ryan and Julio know how I feel about the adoption. I wonder if they would stop all contact with me, or if they would embrace that I was honest with them and open their heart to me and let me rave about it sometimes. I dont understand why an adoptive parent wouldnt open their mind to see the birthmoms pain or how they really feel and not just happy banter to keep the adoption open just to see updates and pictures of their growing child.