It bothers me.

It really bothers me when someone says that I am not Ethans mom. And that I gave up my "mom" rights when I signed my rights away, so I should lose that title. I realize that I am not his parent, Ryan and Julio are, I also realize that I do have special relationship with them and Ethan being his birth mom. But I am his mom, just like he is my son.
Yes, I do not see him everyday. No, he doesnt call me mom. Yes, I signed my rights away. No, do I feel as if I am doing anything wrong. But will I ever address myself to Ethan as Mommy? No, that is disrepectful to Ryan and Julio. Do I sign my cards [so far] as Mommy Yvonne? Yes. Do I see anything wrong with it? No, because I know when he gets them, the boys read it to him as From: Yvonne and Adrian. But I feel as when he is old enough to read them, he will learn [if he hasnt already] that I love him.
Maybe my views are messed up in a way. But to me I do not feel like I am doing anything wrong. One person told me that she hopes that it will hit me like a ton of bricks when I get the realization that it is just a coping way.