The final order

As I was cleaning my kitchen island off, I find an unopened letter for me from Family Court of the state of Delaware. At first I thought, oh great what is Adrian's dad doing now. So I opened it. The first thing I see is Adoption from the heart then baby boy ______. Then I see his full name with my last name. Needless to say, I was taken aback.
As I read the letter, I start feeling horrible. Now I understand what the letter means. And what is said, but for me it uses harsh words, like eliminate, relinquish and convince evidence. To you those might not be harsh. I understand its the court system and that is the way it has to be stated.
It makes me feel like I did something horrible.